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i've been dreaming more recently which is very out of the ordinary for me.
because it's so unordinary it tends to disturb me quite a bit.
so i did a bit of dream analysis and it blows my mind how cohesive each situation is.
tattoos: to dream that you have a tattoo, suggests that a waking situation or decision is having a much longer lasting effect that you had expected.
arms: indicates your nurturance side and your ability to reach out and care for people. alternatively, it may represent the struggles and challenges in your life.
scab: to see a scab in your dream symbolizes a time of healing.
landlord: control, rational/responsible side
attacking dogs: signifies some inner conflict within yourself; it may indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness
mace: quest for objectivity over subjectivity; not letting emotions rule actions
purple: indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion
rape: To dream that you have been raped, indicates vengeful feelings toward the opposite sex. You are feeling violated in some way or being taken advantage of. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. You feel that someone or something is being forced upon you.
anyway, i wish things would pan out in all sorts of ways. also wish i would get motivated. in a lot of ways.
BUT GOOD NEWS!!!
I'M COMING HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!
can't take being away much longer. i miss you all so fucking much.
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*sigh*
i miss my friends from home more than words can say.
the past couple of days have been rather hard in this regard for reasons unknown to me.
i've been falling asleep listening to the earth in not a cold dead place and wishing bryan was there too,
and thinking about my little girls at starbucks every time i go to coffee bean (which is daily),
and wishing tanner was here to film water and food coloring with me when i'm bored and restless,
and wanting to go to late night arby's with dalton just because i could.
i know there are many more instances of time that i wish i had the time to elaborate on,
but this is just a tiny sampling of the sad swimming thoughts i've been having the past days.
it kills me that i can't just give you all a call and come see you at a moment's notice.
this isn't to say that i haven't made fabulous friends here,
but it's terribly irritating that i had to give up these daily interactions with the people that i love so much.
in other news, school just started back up this week.
this quarter i'm taking rendering II (aghck), gemology, history of jewelry, wax carving and casting, and metalsmithing I!
with the exception of rendering i am pretty stoked about all of my classes. it's all already been much more hands on.
i even kind of like rendering, i'm just not great at it and it tends to be rather frustrating for me.
i'm happy to be learning wax carving, so anytime i carve something i love i can go get it cast upstairs :D!
the approaching realness of becoming a legitimate designer is terribly exciting/terrifying.
i feel like twenty is so young to be graduated and starting a career. oiiiii
really the only other negative thing on my mind recently is you.
the biggest 'fuck you megan' is the fact that you couldn't even tell me you were over it.
i miss you of course, but 'you' is relative. you were right in saying that we didn't even know one another.
just wish i could forget about it all.
i also wish i could stop formulating crushes on gay boys. WHYYY?!
harrumph.
photos? i've got about a trillion, considering it's been more than a month since i've updated.
a friend of frank's asked me to model for some photos and these are my faves.
since moving here i've gained a taste for dancing so here's some photos from those nights.
aunt and uncle visited me and it was so fantastic, my first visitors! miss them so much.
this is a photo of me and my aunt and her friend dawn who is adorable.
went to malibu with frank and olivia and mike. took so many photographs that i loved, wish i could post them all. (YACHT jajaja)
modeled for shawn the other day for a school project he was doing. hilarious/freezing cold.
i have a lot of (i think) great photographs i've taken recently that i need to edit.
i have a few that i've edited thus far and will post those and post the rest as i edit them.
annnnd a random photo of me sketching kangaroos with unmentionables.
goodbye for now loves.
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decided to start a tumblr,
i will probably continue to update this from time to time however.
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this week is making me smile kind of a lot.
school has been pretty laid back this week, a bit of the calm before the storm.
projects to complete in the next two weeks:
- design presentation board
- debt cancellation persuasive speech
- creative process journal
- poppy king creative process research paper
- rendering final project
oi! it'll be so rewarding when it's all done with.
i really can't believe how the quarter has flown by so quickly.
a friend of frank's asked me to model for some photos today and i can't wait to see how they turn out :]
she was totally sweet and i hope i get to work with her some more.
also went down to santa monica and had dinner with rex. so happy someone from home is living here!
it's been so long since i've seen him, it was so so refreshing and wonderful.
not much else to say, so here's a photograph i took that i am rather proud of :]
hope you're all doing well!
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